I don’t feel at home anywhere. I feel unwanted, disregarded, and ignored. I feel so alone, but that’s never really bothered me until now. My family is so far away; they know next to nothing about my life now. I have many friends here in New York, but none of them compare to the relationships I had for years back home. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life or where I’m going, and I just feel so lost with no sense of direction. And deep down I think we all know that I’m never going to make it in ballet.
I am nothing.